I’m sitting behind three people in class. One of them has a Fifth Hour Hero sticker on his mug and I had high hopes for them(I tend to be a lurker in real life aswell) so far they’ve talked about shitty music, why they didn’t like “American Hardcore” and are bashing straight edge kids(aparently a lot of us are very metro-sexual) Such is life.

I want to work from home. Or own my own business. Yes, that is what I want. Here are my three work ambitions:
1- I want to be a photo-journalist. It’s been my dream job for years now and it encompasses so much of what I want to do. I would get to travel, work for myself, do something positive and dodge bullets all day. Fun times.
2- I’m an Urban Studies Major. Although a job in this field has never really been a dream of mine, i’ve been able to convince myself of it’s merits. I would want to work as a consultant, helping major cities become more enviromentaly/bicycle friendly. I would get paid well, I could work from home, do something positive in this world and leave my mark(“The Jeremy Cohen Rooftop Garden And Beet Farm”)
3- This is the big one. I want to open up a vegan cafe/venue/record store. It would be a vegan cafe, serving sandwhiches, soups, salades, home-made baked goods and whatnot. There would be a stage in the back and would hopefully be able to host some awesome shows and I would also want to run a little record distro in the location.<br><br>

I’m a little sick of these crappy jobs that pay the rent and provide little else. It scares me that I have at least 4 years of schooling ahead of me. Regardless, i’m all about options. I love open doors. So in the future I plan of taking some business courses so that plan #3 can be realized if I so choose.

There is a cute girl sitting beside me…btw.

Wait….this blog still exists? I made promises about updated often, and I lied. Nevertheless…i’m not upset because this little home on the web still emcompases more than just front page updates. It’s my travel blog, photography portfolio and fixed gear bike blog all in one.

So i’m at a cafe with my good friend Sean and he’s making me update for the sake of his productivity. If he see’s me working, he will have to choice but to do the same. I think this update will be on motivation and the lack of it that seems to be killing me.

There is nothing I enjoy more than an evening at home with a cup of tea, South Park episodes and horrible amounts of food but a little too much of one thing becomes an incredible force of depression. I make projects for myself, set goals and they all fail. Be it finally using my canvas for painting to cleaning my room to…finally getting those fucking tree planting pictures up, nothing gets done! I’m sick of it, I really am. And when I goal is not accomplished, I get depressed and when i’m depressed I lose all motivation and it’s a horrible trend with no end in sight. bah.

So let’s try and remedy this situation. Here is a list of goals that i’ve set for 2008:

- Start painting.

- Buy a guitar and teach myself how to play.

- Finish my tree planting pictures.

- Have my pictures put up at TWIGS and get a gallery show by the end of the year.

- Save as much money as possible.

- Write more.

Alright….simple enough. Now….when i’m at work i’m usually my most efficient. Although I may come off as lazy when i’m at work, I do my job. There are a number of things that need to get done each day and they always get done. So i’ve decided to treat these things like I would any task at work. I’m going to attack each goal one at a time and write down a list and tack it to my wall. Each week or night I will try to get certain things off of that list. Maybe i’ll buy a calender and set goals time wise. “By March 10th, I need to have such and such finished” etc etc.

I hope these idea’s don’t into the same hole that the list is supposed to fix!!!